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End of the World
The Immortality

God multiplied himself through all human being. To believe in myself is the condition of a belief in God. The "self" is the center. This is the truth, and every other philosophy is a lie. I am the way, the truth, and the life. This sentence of Jesus is true. The "self" is one's own heart and conscience. The stronger the "self" gets, the more it will disappear. When the "self" no longer exists, then there is also nothing left to die. This is the immortality. It is a destruction of the dualism with no difference in "I" and the "other", in good and bad, in life and death. It will end up in the nothingness that includes knowing everything.

I arrived at the youth hostel near the temple. Nobody except Tim, the American and two girls were there. Tim was kind of a flipped-out guy with drug experience. He was interested in nothing else but meditating with a brass bowl that he got in Thailand. When he circled the rim of the bowl with a wood-piece, a very unusual and unique tone filled the room. During the meditation, one produces such a tone through the circling of the bowl, only this one tone, and thinks about what the voice of God is. It just can be one tone, because in the voice of God there is no duality. There can be no words, no mixture of high and low sounds. Tim, who once meditated in this fashion near the temple, had the impulse to go to the main temple and immediately discovered the bell-shaped, gigantic tone bowl in which Chinese tourists threw their money. It was like his destiny that he started to circle the rim with the wood mallet. The dull rumbling rang throughout the temple and the area surrounding it. This continued on until a group of observers formed, and his further meditation was interrupted by someone.

In another temple, half of the room was split off for the office and the sales counter. One was almost forced to set himself in front of the statue of Buddha in order to get the vegetarian meal. I stood there when suddenly, Tim came in. Almost absentmindedly, thinking of nothing, I said to him (in German) "we still have to wait a few minutes, until someone comes to the counter..." I wanted to keep talking, as Tim cut me off, waving his arms as if something had hurt his ears. Then we had to laugh, because something impossible happened: Tim, who also thought about nothing, just as I did, and never learned a word of German, could understand everything until he realized that I spoke in German. Then, the same unique atmosphere arose for a moment and I started again to speak German, but this time he noticed it immediately and screamed: "Stop it! Stop it!"

We intend, through the accumulation of information, to always know more and more. It really is that in the moment in which one knows nothing, one also knows everything. To know everything naturally also includes the opposite: nothingness. And nothingness does not allow itself to be comprehended by our way of thinking. With our thinking, we can not comprehend nothingness because thinking is only a hallucination of our body, trapped in the system of language and duality. Thinking keeps us from becoming empty; it keeps us from understanding every language of the world, as it was before the Tower of Babylon, where each person understood the language of the another. This ability got lost through the specialization of thought (namely to build the tower).
I can only reach the all-knowing if I first reach the not-thinking (nothingness).

The beginning of this recognition process was the finding of myself, which I needed first in order to become an absolute man so that I could understand the antipole, the woman. I achieve total freedom in exactly the same way with many apparently strict rules, so that I don't abuse my freedom. For example, Jesus was the freeist person, but in fact he only carried out the Will of God. A hundred years ago, saints allowed themselves to be locked up in Buddhist temples for months at a time in order to achieve freedom through the lack of freedom.
And just as well, the fastest movement can only be caught in total relaxation. This relaxation allows us to lose track of time while dreaming because time is connected with movement. When the perception of movement through our sense organs no longer exists, the feeling of how much time has passed is gone.

I find myself on a journey. There I see two people who are climbing into a gigantic hot air balloon for a trip to the heavens. It seems like I am in an amusement park. The giant balloon is spinning. As they climb into the balloon, their fingers extend because of the centrifugal force. Then their bodies extend; they change their shape and expand more and more. They grow into gigantic monsters in the form of snakes. They begin to glow. I am an observer and would like to get closer, but there is a border which encloses the entire thing like a sphere. In the next moment the lights of the snakes and monsters fade, the whole thing falls together like a hissing ballon whose air is escaping.

In this moment I woke up and sensed that I exhaled with the falling together of the monster.
In this dream I have observered one single breath, since the dream begins with the inhaling and ends with the exhaling. The dream shows me that life consists of many breaths, and every inhale means life, every exhale, death. Mathematically expressed: Life is a function depending on the breath, the size of the breath being adjustable. That means, that the longer each breath is the longer the life lasts. Animals who breathe slowly live longer than those who breathe quickly. This is how we can explain how people like Adam or Noah could be one thousand years old.

I have a stiff penis, and it has been stiff for a while. I'd like to touch it, in order to ejaculate. But my inner voice and the memory from an earlier dream, as well as the fact that I have many observers keeps me from doing so. Suddenly I see a woman who guards a snake at a small, circular pool. She has the snake in her hands. She holds it forward on her mouth so she can't bite. She asks me if I want the snake. I answer with a yes. But I don't want the snake from her hands, because I don't know whether she wants to decieve me, in order to let me be bitten by the snake. I back away from her, not letting her out of my view, until I come to another small pool. I think to myself that maybe there is a snake here too, but I can't find one. As I stand with my feet in the water and consider how I can grab the snake without getting bitten, she suddenly throws the snake at me. In that moment a crazy light comes out of my body and I recognize that what happened until now occurred in the dark. The light has such a power that the snake gets thrown back. It's a light like I've never seen before.

In this dream I came to realize that in reality it is dark when we think it is light outside, and we can see everything. We have the same eyes like an animal, with which we see only what stands before us; we can't see through matter. We actually live in the animal world, in which we seek bodily satisfaction every day. Our intellect helps us to reach this goal in the most easiest way possible.
Also, when a person assumes that he is above the animals, he is in reality actually beneath them because we have already forgotten that an above can only exist when there is also a beneath. Actually, God placed Adam and Eve above the animals before the Fall. Afterwards they had to die just like the animals did. "Because on the day on which you eat, you must surely die (Gen.2:17)." Man has fallen to the animal kingdom and has received an animal-like body.

Science has proven that man has evolved from animals, because we have become similar to the animal. If you follow the levels of development further and further back you will see that the earth is really the mother of life. The opposite - heaven, or paradise - must be a place which is free from all opposites, the so-called duality, a place of perfect harmony.
Duality is characterized by such relationship as minus to plus, under to over, future to the past, passiveness to activity, bliss to suffering, death to life, and so on. When duality disappears, past and future disappear. This would mean that time disappears. Proximity and distance would disappear, which means one could look through the entire universe. Then finally, all of our languages would disappear because they cannot exist without our duality.

The dream tells me that duality dissolves if a light goes out from one's own heart - a light that is stronger than the sun, letting day and night disappear. This light doesn't allow Adam and Eve to be recognized as having been naked. In this dream it could only be reached by giving up sexual activities.

The more people who become aware of this idea, the more probable it is that the age of duality leans towards its end. In a book by Enoch (Secrets of Enoch), it is predicted: "If the visible as well as the invisible creatures as God created them come to an end, then everyone has to go to judgement and time will become useless. There will be neither years nor days nor hours, because they will melt together so that they can no longer be counted." That is only possible if past and future disappear, when duality (which came about through Adam and Eve) disappears. Then the difference between man and woman also disappears: "Because when they arise from the dead, they do not marry, instead they are like angels in heaven" (Mark 12:25).

I see a dinosaur in a pond-like body of water. It is under a layer of ice. But its head is sticking out in front. I am surprised to see such an animal; I thought they were long extinct. I gather up my courage and go to the edge, and as the head sticks out a little, I touch him on the mouth. As I do so, I get an electical shock, and a vague, flat mark remains on my finger. I show it to other people. Then I turn back to the dinosaur. I see how its heart beats; thirty times a minute. I tell him that he will probably live very long with so few heartbeats. He says he will only live one more month, then he will be dead. I am shocked and ask him why he would only live one more month. He said that that he already knows everything, and one must die when one knows everything.

In my earlier dreams I encountered many animals, such as cows, elephants, a tiger, gorillas, a kingfisher, snakes, and others. I encounter a prehistoric animal telling me that the more one understands life, the less he has the will to live. To understand life means to have the same knowledge that proverbs contain and that allows us to understand all religions. Each religion is the way to one's own heart, from which all thinking stems. Religion is the aid in uncovering the veil of the own self, in finding harmony - the harmony that cannot be expressed in words, the harmony that brings us back to paradise and dissolves all opposites. When I speak of harmony, the word is perhaps false because it can only exist with its opposite: disharmony. When I say false, it is correct at the same time because paradise is the third heaven which lies between depravity and moral correctness, and which can not be described in our words (Apostle Paul 2, Corinthians 12:2). So on the other hand, hell has to depict the most extreme duality,in which can be felt the greatest heat, cold, hate, fear, darkness, etc.

In the sky I see a bus, or two buses connected to one another. They appear in the night sky and they race at great speeds. Those who see the whole thing do not want to believe what they've seen because it is something horrible. The door is opened; I am the only one who goes inside. To my surprise, there are only girls, but I am not sexually attracted to them. Then the train begins to move, and I think to myself that lots of people (earthlings) will see us. We simply drive through the houses that stand before us. Then another person enters - it is the head of our language institute. He has a briefcase with him. We tell him he must leave it outside because it is not necessary here. He wants get money and goes outside again. The girl asks if everything is ready for departure. I fear he will miss the train.

The dream tells me that I must renounce everything in the deciding moment. It is death that makes everything we consider important in life meaningless. When thoughts get tied up in money, the thought of death can free me from them - it gives the power to live.
When I am dead and can no longer perceive matter, the planet earth and the universe will have dissolved for me. In this view, every person is a God by whose birth the world is born, and by whose death it ceases to exist. Life is a game in this time span, during which one slips into a role: One plays the role of his profession, his gender, and even the character role that results from his behavior around his friends.

I see to my father as he lay dying. He prepares himself. He has calculated how much time one has in life to prepare for his death. It turns out to be a whole twenty minutes of his neverending life. But there were always the Sunday morning trips to church... actually... I observe how three horizontal folds form on his forehead. It expresses his fear of death. I can sense it, and groan a little. My father now measures his pulse. His pulse is only thirty beats per minute, and he knows that it is time: now he must die. In this moment I make no efforts to conceal what I am thinking. I say loudly: "The ego with his body doesn't exist in reality, it was an illusion, and you believed in it your whole life." He immediately understands me, and he makes heavy movements in order to express that it is that exactly, and passes away.

This dream shows me what immortality means: namely that the ego actually never existed. The path to the own self, the recognation of the own self, leads to the dissolving of the own self. In this context Jesus' logical way of thinking becomes understandable - he can have no sympathy for people who harm others and who don't want to convert. Because they do not recognize that by harming others they are harming themselves. They believe in the independence of the ego. Surely, the biggest trial for them is mentioned in the Bible and other religious books. For lack of realization and pride, they wander around outside the center, where the distance from one's fellow man gets larger, while the distance between all people who possess the realization of their own hearts is short and always decreasing. The closer one gets to God and to himself, until the ego and individuality dissolves, there is no longer an individual soul.
The creation of an immortal, personal soul was a creation of lies, because the devil already said to Eve, "You shall not die if you enjoy the fruits of duality." Man clings to the idea that there is something immortal in him. The soul is not what is immortal, rather, the teachings of Jesus, which I have explained, lead to immortality. The disintegration of the ego is the fruit of the second tree in paradise - the tree of eternal life (tree of the distruction of the dualism).


A interesting link from the author with the experiences of life 40 years later: